First off, if you didn't know I dyed my hair ... I have brown hair

And apparently I look like a white guy. It's my new look and I like it.
Just gotta wait until my parents see it ... -_-;;;
So a couple weeks ago David and I were looking at
Proverbs 3
21 My son, preserve sound judgment and discernment,
do not let them out of your sight;
22 they will be life for you,
an ornament to grace your neck.
23 Then you will go on your way in safety,
and your foot will not stumble;
24 when you lie down, you will not be afraid;
when you lie down, your sleep will be sweet.
I started to think about how my view on the world and God's role in it. Boy... I am somewhat old school. Although I grew up in a conservative church, I never considered myself that hard core traditional. And yet while in college I feel like I have been a pretty skeptical Christian (especially seeing clips from "Jesus Camp"). Sometimes I rationalized that it was because I grew up on the east coast and then because I was Chinese. Other Christians my age would not be phased by certain things, but I could not accept that. I have always been reluctant to accept strange things as God-ordained, but is that bad? Doesn't God call us to question things? Satan is deceptive, don't you agree? How can you be absolutely sure that everything that happens is because God said so?
David reassured me that being skeptical does not make you less faithful. He mentioned a reference to speaking in tongues in 1 Corinthians 14. The purpose of speaking in tongues is for those who don't believe. Paul says that "... in the church I would rather speak five intelligible words to instruct than ten thousand words in a tongue." I have never seen someone speak in tongues (in person), and I do not know if I'll be able to see God in all that craziness. We'll see what He does. I'm not saying that God won't show himself through people with this spiritual gift, but I don't need to see it to believe in Him.
Then I started thinking about Jesus and his miracles. He never wanted to be known for his miracles. In John, Jesus' brothers tell him that he needs to show himself to the world. Jesus replies in John 6:
"The right time for me has not yet come; for you any time is right." We do not need to see Jesus doing all this crazy stuff. Jesus is working even though you can't always see it. Even his first miracle -- turning water into wine -- is done without people knowing what Jesus had done. Jesus hated that people needed to see miracles to believe. Isn't it obvious enough?
God has worked in my life and most of the time it has been so subtle. I am glad that I am skeptical on what goes on, because not everything is God's work. Satan is at work as well. I think it is good to question what happens in the world and to check if God is really speaking in obscure and strange ways because you never know. I'll always take a step back and try to see if God is really present. Being a skeptical Christian does not make you less faithful but actually more faithful. I've never seen God move a mountain or Jesus walk on water, but I have seen Him change and work in people's hearts especially mine and that is all the proof I need of His existence.
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